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Another scene

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I'm in another relationship. This time I do love. She loves me too. But not as much. She's certainly more experienced than I. In fact I'm not too sure if she really loves me. Ing can say she loves me because I love her. I don't think she'll love me if I don't. She was in a one-sided love, only about a couple of months ago before we met. Yes she'd have done anything for him. She's done almost everything for him, it seems. I don't think she'll do that for me though. Or, yes, she doesn't do anything for me. She was prepared to give up everything for him. She's NOT prepared to do the same for me though. Simple - she doesn't really love me. She says that one-sided love expired long ago. But she'd only erase his shadows in her only when I find them out. I know his shadows, things that remind her of him, still permeate in her. It drives me crazy. Somehow it's not that I'm jealous of him. Rather it's that I can't stand her lies. When she says she loves me, it's just not the same love she cherished for him. It's more of gratitude. Gratitude in response to my love.


My solution is to accept the fact. Accept that she doesn't love me. Be prepared to let her go when she can no longer pretend to really love me.

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the words

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Once, Agnes Repplier said "There are few nudities so objectionable as the naked truth."

And Helen Keller said "Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light."

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Oww

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My chest sorta hurts.

And I have a random bruise on the outside of my left thigh.

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Steadfast

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I think the major flaw in my personality is my obstinacy.


I have no intentions of ever changing my personality. I like the way I am.

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Winter

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It's snowing.

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Sleepy

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I finally took the air conditioner out!

I guess I'll clean my windows next.

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Obligation

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From the moment you are born, you are the culmination of your parents' dreams and aspirations, their hope and their wishes.


Thank you for telling me that you're proud of the very minuscule and obscure accomplishments that I have made, which I myself have no pride in.

But as your offspring, I apologize for being a culmination of failures and insufficiencies.

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Struggle

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I would rather forfeit than fight a battle I know I'll lose.


Life, too, is a war.

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Motion.

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Just discovered that I've developed motion sickness.

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This, too, shall pass away

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When some great sorrow, like a mighty river,

Flows through your life with peace-destroying power

And dearest things are swept from sight forever,

Say to your heart each trying hour: "This, too, shall pass away."


When ceaseless toil has hushed your song of gladness,

And you have grown almost too tired to pray,

Let this truth banish from your heat its sadness,

And ease the burdens of each tring day: "This, too, shall pass away."


When fortune smiles, and, full of mirth and pleasure,

The days are flitting by without a care,

Lest you should rest with only earthly treasure,

Let these few words their fullest import bear: "This, too, shall pass away."


When earnest labor brings you fame and glory,

And all earth's noblest ones upon you smile,

Remember that life's longest, grandest story

Fills but a moment in earth's little while: "This, too, shall pass away."



-Lanta Wilson Smith

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:(

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It breaks my heart when I heat up food and it sounds like it should be really hot, but by the time I take it back to my room and eat, I find that the center is cold.

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Toes

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Can't feel my toes. Need to wear socks. But I don't like socks because they make my feet feel confined.

I suppose I should take out the air conditioner from the window. Maybe the little space between the window sill and AC is why it's so cold.

It's already the later half of autumn. I'm a little slow, aren't I?

But it's so heavy and I'm so weak. I'll do it tomorrow.

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White

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It annoys me when people complain about not having a significant other and being lonely. I've never had anyone like that. It's natural to want a mate, I think, just based on instinct, but after years of never having a single person I was interested in reciprocate my feelings, I feel like it doesn't matter anymore. My feelings are either swept under a rug, or I would be lowering my standards. Likewise, I've never instantly fallen in love. I've always chosen my feelings. For me, there is no gray area, and I have never been in the white.

The feeling in black is absolute nothingness. To the extent where the idea of being intimate with another person is now so illogical and preposterous to me that I would immediately dismiss anyone. I will never know what it feels like.

I don't feel empty.

I feel completely detached.

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Contact

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porygon@livedoor.com

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Re: and

kk

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what a simple thing!

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Engineer And Manager Joke - Men Joke at Nearly Good

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A man is flying in a hot air balloon and realizes he is lost. He reduces height and spots a man down below. He lowers the balloon further and shouts: "Excuse me, can you help me? I promised my friend I would meet him half an hour ago, but I don't know where I am."

The man below says: "Yes. You are in a hot air balloon, hovering approximately 30 feet above this field. You are between 40 and 42 degrees N. latitude, and between 58 and 60 degrees W. longitude."

"You must be an engineer" says the balloonist.

"I am" replies the man. "How did you know."

"Well" says the balloonist, "everything you have told me is technically correct, but I have no idea what to make of your information, and the fact is I am still lost."

The man below says "You must be a manager."

"I am" replies the balloonist, "but how did you know?"

"Well", says the man, "you don't know where you are, or where you are going. You have made a promise which you have no idea how to keep, and you expect me to solve your problem. The fact is you are in the exact same position you were in before we met, but now it is somehow my fault."

Engineer And Manager Joke - Men Joke at Nearly Good



That's going to be me. (Not lost in the hot air balloon.)

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A sense of history.

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Beginning some months ago, my interest in nonfiction has been increasing, as I continue to read and be fascinated by thought-provoking book upon thought-provoking book. Among these are three that deal in history, both natural and socio-political: Guns, Germs, and Steel, A Short History of Nearly Everything, and, most recently, The Story of Civilization.



To summarize Guns, Germs, and Steel: Jared Diamond explains the overall historical dominance of Eurasian civilizations by pointing out geographical and ecological factors that facilitated agriculture and the domestication of animals, accelerating the acquisition of civilization (and hence superior weaponry and political organization) as well as immunity to animal-borne diseases (which would turn out to provide significant, if not crucial, assistance in subduing those who had yet to acquire resistance).



A Short History of Nearly Everything, on the other hand, is something like a guided tour: from the origins of the universe, to the formation and development of our planet Earth, to the evolution of Homo sapiens, to the more recent history of the scientific undertaking, with all its eccentric geniuses and humorous episodes. (In fact, this last formed such a large part of the book that it may as well have been called The Secret Lives of Scientists.)



And, last but definitely not least, The Story of Civilization is a gigantic, sprawling, eleven-volume set of books representing Will (and Ariel, his wife) Durant's valiant attempt at an encompassing and synthetic, yet detailed and sympathetic, exploration of man's history. In his own words:


"I wish to tell as much as I can, in as little space as I can, of the contributions that genius and labor have made to the cultural heritage of mankind - to chronicle and contemplate, in their causes, character and effects, the advances of invention, the varieties of economic organization, the experiments in government, the aspirations of religion, the mutations of morals and manners, the masterpieces of literature, the development of science, the wisdom of philosophy, and the achievements of art. I do not need to be told how absurd this enterprise is, nor how immodest is its very conception … Nevertheless I have dreamed that despite the many errors inevitable in this undertaking, it may be of some use to those upon whom the passion for philosophy has laid the compulsion to try to see things whole, to pursue perspective, unity and time, as well as to seek them through science in space. … Like philosophy, such a venture [as the creation of these 11 volumes] has no rational excuse, and is at best but a brave stupidity; but let us hope that, like philosophy, it will always lure some ras...


It seems to me that Will Durant is one of those writers possessed of such skill and contagious zeal as to effortlessly enamor any reader with even the slightest degree of receptiveness.



These books have helped me to realize how rich and rewarding a study of history might be. I am quite tempted at this point to once again quote Will Durant and let a far, far more eloquent man extol the pleasures and virtues of the historical endeavor. But instead I shall push on.


Why study history? There is the peculiar intellectual pleasure of elegant explication, of patterns being found arising naturally, or being crafted with great deftness and skill. The human mind has evolved to revel in unraveling and making sense of a constant f...


History is often interesting in the same way that anecdotes and contemporary gossip are irresistibly interesting. As humans, we ca...


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ein versuch

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ein versuch ...

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Template. (As always, a work in progress.)

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(A guide to help future posts be as useful and on track as possible. First draft: 24-Aug-2009. 1 edit as of 24-Aug-2009.)


1. How and when I encountered the idea or concept

- Brief remarks for context

- Introduction to the reference text


2. The explanation, in my own words

- What it's all about

- Why it's worth trying to learn and explain


3. Synthesis

- Support/ agreement with other ideas

- Possible criticism/ clashing with other ideas


4. Continuation

- Related ideas and other references (e.g., to look up)

- Plans for learning more about the idea or concept

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The first steps. Learning by explaining.

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Lately, I've come to realize that appreciating great ideas as I encounter them is one thing. Retaining and making good use of them is quite another. The desire grew - and continues to grow - in me to start taking learning more seriously.


At the same time, inspired by the many samples of clear, lively exposition I've marveled at over the years, I wish to improve my (latent?) writing skills.


Here I hope to begin the ambitious, perhaps noble but undoubtedly naive attempt at my own explanation of all these things I don't want to just forget - because I find them elegant, shocking, illuminating, or, simply, beautiful.

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